The Complexity of Four Letters

“Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes,

But it is the only thing that I know.

And when it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes,

It is the only thing that makes us feel alive.”

Haha, continuing to hum the song, aren’t you? This Ed Sheeran song is beautiful, isn’t it? 

I absolutely love it. Some songs have the power to make you feel infinite. For me, Photograph is one such song. Although all the songs of Ed Sheeran are heart touching, Perfect is also one of them.

These songs absolutely defines the meaning of LOVE.

Love. What a tiny little innocuous word. The Oxford Dictionary defines love as ‘a very strong feeling of affection.’ Literally, yes, this is what love might mean. But this four letter word has inexplicable strings of emotion attached to it. Love cannot be entitled to a standard definition, it’s much more. Love is not just a feeling.

Love, it’s a way of life.

The best and worst thing about love is that it cannot be expressed in words. Nothing else matters when you are in Love, you just want to be feel deep every moment of your life.

Just like songs, love has the power to make us feel infinite. Spreading love and joy is one of the most fulfilling activities for the human heart. To love is to live. Whether it’s your mother, father, lover, best friend, pet dog or kitten, or even your food, books or clothes, love prevails. 

Everywhere....Every time....Every soul in this world is capable of expressing love. 

It’s the only thing we know, the only thing that makes us feel alive, like Ed says. To be loved, is another feeling altogether. The reason why any individual is able to succeed and be happy in life is mainly because he has a tiny bunch of beautiful people willingly standing behind him, like pillars of pure strength which support him endlessly, love him unconditionally. 

When life goes haywire, it is love which saves us. It is nothing, but this strong feeling of affection which gives us the power to do anything and everything. At the end of the day, it is only this feeling which can conquer any form of evil. Love wins....All The Time.

Key of happiness.

At the same time, love is the one thing which can completely obliterate us. When love breaks, a part of our soul is injured. Loving can hurt. Really hurt. It can shatter us. When love fails, everything else holds no value. That’s the power of this tiny little inconspicuous word. It has the power to form oceans, but at the same time it has the power to cause a flood as well.

Life is strange, my friend. How can you expect it to be perfect when your greatest strength also happens to be your biggest weakness?

-Tanvi Desai #fanpost

Source: scribbled stories ( Facebook)

Dairy

Do you ever thought what would have happened to her, after that day, the day she decided to meet a stranger following her volition. Did she carried on her new relationship or did she pulled off because of fear of her another heartbreak.

Well this is another short dairy note of young girl and story of a major truth in relationships of today’s generation, of heartbreak and mistrust

“So finally the day came, the day when we decided to meet. That day was just like all other days but the evening was special. On that evening, I wore my new red suit with white salwar. Well that dress up was actually new for me too because I usually don't wear suit. Overall, everything was new that day, my dress, my look & my new changed attitude towards life (after my breakup).

I really want to mention this, that a breakup is a situation that changes a person entirely from inside out. What I think that its actual good, it moulds you, but it totally depends on you how you want to mould yourself. There are many friends of mine who started drinking or taking drugs (boys only) or stop trusting others or most commonly they shut themselves from the outer world (which is so dangerous for that person).

For me, my breakup was so heartbreaking but it was a major breakthrough for me, its like a became more practical towards people & situations. Rather than being emotional all the time I became stronger, but I also decided one thing that I'll never hurt someone's feelings. It’s ironical, right? I am saying that I decided not to hurt anyone's feelings but at the same time I have also decided to date a guy for time pass. Don't worry; you'll know what I did.

So, after getting all beautifully dressed I made some excuse at home and went out on my scooty to meet him. When I reached the spot to meet (which was decided by us on Facebook), I saw him standing at the corner of the road, waiting for me, the girl which didn't meant much to him at that time. He didn't notice me at first, I was so anxious I didn't knew what to do, finally, I took my scooty a bit close to him, then he saw me and we waved at each other. Well that was a crowded place, so, we decided to go somewhere else. He sat behind me on my scooty (I felt so shy & awkward) and I drove us to the decided place & there we stood facing each other. At that moment we were two strangers which were meeting to start a new relationship (at that time for fun) unknowing of the consequences. Our conversation started, it was to know each other better. From his side he was totally convinced to make me his girlfriend so, he kept on asking me that is it YES from my side too. But I was continuously saying that I can't, I have to study, I can't lose my focus etc. But even if I said 'NO' several times he was still not accepting it and his confidence towards me that I'll say YES made me so baffled. As our talks went on, the time passed by and the sky became darker, which indicated my time to go, so, I told him it's getting late I have to go. He didn't wanted me to go, he wanted an answer but I was not prepared at that time to give him any answer. But whatever it was he couldn't force me, so he agreed and against behind me on my scooty. I dropped him back to the place where I met him. I still don't know what happened that day, but it seemed some kind of magic was there in the air.

As a goodbye for that day I put my hand forward for a handshake (its my habit), in response he brought his hand forward, held my hand, BUT its was not just as the handshake, he held my hand tight so as to not let go. I don't know what it was but I did felt something, something that I can't even explain and I don't even know myself. While holding my hand, he once again asked me that are we in a relationship now? But the way he asked it seemed more like an approval, an approval that he gave from both our sides.

In the reply, I just smiled.

I didn't say Yes, I didn't even replied that we are in a relationship but this is how my relationship started.

And I’m glad I made that choice four years ago, that one choice changed my life, made me believe in love & trust. I chose my decision my life and changed it as I wanted it too.”

So everything is a count of belief, if you’ll believe in yourself, you’ll unquestionably be happy for all the decisions you made for yourself. Not only to choose your love but in every way of life.

”In a world full of comparisons

The only escapade is

BEING YOU!!”

Motto to live by….

Many of us detest our life because we don’t have a beautiful or perfectly shaped body. Or maybe we are not rich enough in money to fulfill our all needs, so we cast covetous eyes on others. Is life is all about this, comparing ourselves to others. How beautiful his girlfriend is? How rich is he or she? What if I could do that thing too? What if I become like him? What if I get this...What if I get those?

Forget about this, all about the “What if’s”.  There should not be any “how’s and what if’s” in your life. Life isn’t a matter of comparison the day when you starts to compare your life to others you are not the person you used to be. You become someone else; you grew the faux personality of others. Is that what you want to, to spend whole of your life living someone else’s life in your body. Those questions of temptations and all those allurements are fake, what you need is to be the person who you are. Live your life at fullest. Enjoy each and every day of your life to the full exhilaration. And stop comparing yourself with others that’s not what you are meant for. Make out your own abilities, pick out your powers and enjoy your life in doing your part.

In the end (if everything goes right) you’ll die in the bed and regretting how you wasted your life not doing anything.

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming  “ WOO HOOOOOO  WHAT A RIDE!!!!”, “BRING ME MORE BITCH !!!!”.

Remember always, when something goes wrong in your life just yell “PLOT TWIST” and move on ahead.

Dairy

Sometimes it's hard to trust someone after a breakup, and it should be. Because every time when someone's heart is broken down they lost a part of their heart.

This is a diary of a young girl, no !! not the whole dairy but just a part of her diary journal.She wrote her thoughts her story about finding her first love. What she did to make herself comfy. 

"Well, it's so hard for me to sum up everything, the incidents, those days, my feelings, everything. But still I'll try to share as much as you all can understand & as less as he doesn't feel bad (he is a bit shy type so he doesn't like to share much of his feelings) & scold me.

The time when I first met him, he was just a stranger to me, a stranger with whom I started talking on Facebook just like that for time pass & fun. At first, we started talking normally, then just like any other guy on social networking site he started flirting with me and I was still coping up with my memories of my Ex and my breakup with him, so I was also listening to all his talks trying to forget my past. Then after some days of chatting, he said he loves me but I know these boys nowadays say 'I love you' like they are saying 'Hello'. So, I told this incident to my best friend as she was his classmate in the previous school and thus she knew him. Actually, I was so much hurt from my disastrous breakup that I told her that I will date a guy only if she says he is OK. Well, she granted me permission to date him but with a warning to not get attached to him. After this conversation with her I also thought that when everyone else including my Ex can do time pass with others and not feel a thing, I can also do this (but actually I'm not this type of a person). Finally, I decided if by any chance we started dating, I won't date him for long, but the point is I decide to date him. So, after he confessed me, he insisted to meet me, I agreed.

This is how it all started."

Do you ever have this type of situation in your life when you start to hate everything and maybe everyone but then comes that person, that one person who changes your life. Who teaches you the real meaning of trust, you start to believe in yourself. If you have got that person in life don't let him/her go.

So I have a question for you guys out there.

" Do you believe in Love?"

"After an awful breakup will you give someone the chance to make up with you, to regain the trust you lost somewhere in the past?" 

A Letter to my best friend

To my best friend….

                              The first time I ever saw you, I never thought there will be any day when we will be together. I know all just my fate meeting you that day, but while writing this I can feel happiness in my soul. I don’t know if you remember our first talk but yes I do, I do remember how we met and I can say that novel was very lucky for you that day, because of that you got me in your life.

 You know you are so beautiful and I can say that you are really one of kind. You are intelligent no I must have said wrong you are quite impressive you are heavenly great. I wonder have anyone told you yet that you are wonderful enough.

I’m in wonder if it was a happenstance to meet you out of billions of people in the world, I mean how could that be possible you just fit to my soul, you know me better than anyone. Of course after my parents but still, you are just like me. But just the difference is you are the one who makes me laugh when I have tears in my eyes always, till now you probably don’t know that. But yes I have tears in my eyes many times, many of the times the reasons were you too. But that every time I knew that who could make me smile is you only. I don’t know if our conversations ever meant anything to you but for me, that conversation is like an antidote, an antidote of depression an antidote of lament. I know it’s weird but yes that’s the truth, although our conversation doesn’t make any sense to anyone, they are crazy for someone else, and they should, I don’t want anyone else to understand our code and our secret meetings.

Long since I have millions of conversations with you, we have shared so many stories, feelings, and our past as well. But now I’m feeling that things are not same as they were in the past, or they should be now. Nowadays our texting is more in fighting rather than talking about us. Day by day, no of messages we send to each are decreasing. I don’t care for that, maybe you got busy with your stuff. But at least try when we talk whether it’s just for few minutes when we talk we should try to share our day long. Like our old back days. Because I don’t want to spend my whole night reading our old saved chat to make myself happy, rather than want to make new memories.

Because you are the person who knows the inside and outside me, and for someone to know that much about me and still loves me, well if that doesn’t make you a special and wonderful then I don’t know what should.

Really I’m very lucky to have you around me. You are worth every gem on this earth. And I promise you I’ll always be there for you, stay by your side. You could never lose my friendship and love. I’ll be holding your hand in our ups and down. I’ll stand up for you when others who do not see your brilliance try to knock you down.

Because you are my best friend and I love you.

And nothing will ever change that.

# A.G thanks for inspiring to pen down my feelings for my best friend, your story helped me a lot.

Strangers

In the past I always thought who would be my true love, sorry that would be too much to say ….not True Love, but yeah I always hoped for the girl who could understand every little bit of me ,emotional, bewildered and mopey me. But then after so many rejections one day, one fine day my eyes stopped searching, my heart start beating in another rhyme. And that day I met a stranger, I met you.



To the world I don’t know but you are quiet reserved but for me you are a mystery a mystery unrevealed. They admire you always, but you like to keep distances so do I. And I wish, I wished I could talk to you more, know you better, your juvenile form. Learn a thing or two about you, to reveal your mystery or to be a part of that mystery.

And I did learn. By observing you, noticing your routines, noticing each and every detail to discover the hidden treasure lying inside you, the winsomeness of yours. I learn from the whispers shared by others, from overheard words, which you spoke to someone else.

With the passing night, as you became less of a stranger to me, you end up being more like a mystery wrapped in an enigma. And I realized that you were creation of her own, creature of beauty. It would be ignominious to describe your mesmerizing soul in words.



Somehow this admiration I feel is inevitable. Sometimes some people even call it crush.

But it doesn’t look like as everyone thinks, it’s painful, really dreadful feelings you could have in you. I feel love not the materialistic one but the love which blends the soul, combines the psyche. I don’t expect anything out of this or from you. I never have. I just love being a silent spectator.

Perhaps I’m not meant to be. Perhaps this distance, between us, that’s what keeps me sane.

But for someone who is at that distance from you, I know a lot about you. I know about your hairs, those curly hairs which you wished to be straight. And also about that wisdom tooth which gives you such endearing look, although that wisdom tooth has nothing to do with you cause you are such dopey. How you forget everything even the most important things too. I know you like black and full sleeves. You like to party, you love those around you. I know your five minutes aftershock of laughing when you try to understand the joke. I know your eyes rumple at the edges when you smile.



There’s a lot I know about you but there are lot more which I would like to know. Beneath a lonely banyan tree, under the stars, in the rain.

Somewhere. Anywhere. But let just blame that on you being a mystery for now. Shall we?

Because I think I already know a lot, and I’m someone you’ll never really know.



I’m just a stranger you were not looking for.

-Deepak Joshi





- Credits

Terrible tiny tales